1. |
||||
i have scars up and down my body
from taking shape as i learned to take up space
i have scars all over my heart
from when we spent some time together
i have wounds up and down my body
in plain view so everyone can see
what you did to me
what you did to me
i have trauma heavy in my brain
it repeats the same old things
what you did to me
what you did to me
what you did to me
what you did to me
|
||||
2. |
cotton mouth
03:03
|
|||
in a room with faces i don't know the names to
staring at my laces so i don't have to
feeling like a jack in the box
wondering when i'm going to pop
they're just white noise
they're just white noise
they're just white noise
they're just white noise
he whispered in my ear
in a room with faces i know
staring at my laces head low
feeling like im frozen in place
once i thaw, i'll get a taste of shortened breath
they're just white noise
they're just white noise
they're just white noise
they're just white noise
he whispered in my ear
but i don't want to be here
i don't want to be here
i don't want to be here
i whispered in his ear
|
||||
3. |
devils advocate/apathy
02:57
|
|||
sometimes i get overwhelmed
by small things and feelings i don't know well
like breathing while crying
or seeing the good in those that have wronged me
i'm so sick of crying, i don't have anymore in me
i'm so sick of crying, i don't have anymore in me
i don't think i can be forgiving
forgiving
teach me the value
i don't think i can be forgiving
forgiving
|
||||
4. |
black crayon
03:48
|
|||
i was sixteen, you were fifteen
a christmas tree showed up in the cafeteria and i sat at your lunchtable
i was seventeen, you were sixteen
we were both in a school play, you were faster in cross country
i always thought you'd be by my side, i always thought you'd be in my life
i was eighteen, you were seventeen
we were both falling in love for the first time
now i'm 25, crying in the bathroom
looking at pictures online, that i took of you
i always thought you'd be by my side, i always thought you'd be in my life
i always thought you'd be by my side, i always thought you'd be in my life
the older i get, i'm more comfortable using scissors
the older i get i'm more comfortable, using scissors even when i don't want to
i don't want to
it hurts me too, it hurts me too
it hurts me too
|
||||
5. |
||||
have you let someone in who you later wished you didn't?
have you felt your heart drop into your stomach
when they show their hand,
and you're disappointed. again.
have you been reluctant to build new relationships
because of your mistakes,
but they're not your mistakes
you didn't deserve any of it
you didn't deserve any of it
you didn't deserve any of it
you didn't deserve any of it
|
||||
6. |
when it counted
02:51
|
|||
on the phone the other day
my mother said she was proud of me
and i held my breathe while crying
thank you
called off work the other day
because my brain was mad at me
and delia told me not to feel guilty
thank you
came home from the bank the other day
tears rolling down my face
that's how sara found me, hugged me and told me they love me
thank you
|
Streaming and Download help
If you like camp counselor, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp